needs to get it out

You know that feeling you get when you just wanna get it out but you dont want to complain to everyone well thats the way i am just now. I am so fustrated at the moment Still no flights booked for hp land and the us trip its exactly two months well the charge conf is and we sitll havent booked. Luckily i am all registered for charge conf and booked in as the hotel is booked out. Secondly dad is taking on my old ros=le of the TO MANY DRS TO MANY PROBS while i am happy i a healhty i do wish eveyrone else could be healhty. His screaming is getting to me and its really tiring me out i try to ignore it and be positive and am for the most part but sometiems i jsut want to get it all off my chest. He wotn stick to one dr he has to keep changing so of course no one knows whats happening they are now saying he might have lupas encephalitis and some wierd prob in his eye wich he wotn get operated on. It is so irrational chargers and charge fams all know that we will change drs once or twice never every single appt. I feel i cant have a proper conversation with mum anymore coz of his screaming he tells me off for existing sometimes. I have to ring her every day wich is sutpid coz i live with her. I am so looking forward to camp and then the big trip in july and now for a big breath and smile and keep on going and stay positive. It will come allright eventualy i jsut wish i knew when so much going on i feel better now for getting all that off thats a good thing about a blog on fb you can write this stuff and certain people can read it but those people like my brother or his lovely fiance who loves me very much and i love them very much. but they can read in fb and tell mum where as here they wont. OOPS i jsut relised a duplicate goes to fb i dotn know that they pay that close attention tho but if anyonme thinks i should deleat so they cant read in the network blogs ap on fb pls leave a comment big hugs to all